The Circle of Life

So much has happened since I last wrote here that I will try to condense information as much as possible. On December 27 I had a second hemiplegic migraine that impacted my left side. It mimicked a stroke again, and it took two and a half hours for the rehab facility/nursing home to contact emergency personnel. I thank the Lord that I was not having a stroke. This set me back significantly and I ended up being gone from December 4 (in the hospital until December 7 when transferred to rehab facility) until January 22 when I was discharged. That was 42 days in rehab. I was doing so much better. I had started to receive some therapy at home but was doing well. It was so nice to be home. Mom had left the Christmas decorations up for me because I missed Christmas. We went out to dinner to celebrate me being home.
That brings us to now. On Saturday I had another hemiplegic migraine, this time impacting my right side. I was home EIGHT days. Eight days. I am having a hard time coping with this happening a third time in less than two months and throwing my life out of sorts all over again. It is physically exhausting, and it is mentally exhausting, and it is emotionally exhausting. I feel so alone at times. I will once again be going to rehab. I was supposed to go to a rehab facility much closer to home than last time, but they do not have any beds. So as of right now I am going back to where I was last time, with the promise that I will be transferred as soon as a bed is available. This time is harder because I know what to expect, and because my right side is my dominant side, and because I was already gone so long before with just a short break at home. I am trying to be thankful that I had time at home, something many of the residents do not have as they live there day in and day out. I am trying to be thankful that it was not a full stroke causing brain damage. I am trying to be thankful that I have access to medical care that I need. I am trying.